Saturday, February 14, 2009

Healing

Wednesday is my class day, weaving, carving and tai chi. The tai chi remains a challenge, I wonder if I am ever going to get it. In carving I continue to chip away at the wood around the Big Raven, I wonder if I will ever get to actual carving. Maybe next week. I filled two large dust bins with wood chips in the course of the afternoon.

In the morning weaving I do feel like I am making progress though. I've finished the sections of basic weaving and am now working on the parts where you have to be able to "read" the pattern that Line has created for our samplers. She spent a few minutes instructing Kendra and I in how to do that. Line also brought her finished tapestry called Healing. It is a brightly coloured abstract tapestry, about five feet long and a foot and a half wide. Very beautiful. It is the second in a series she is doing.

She also read to us a little essay she had written based on her experience creating this tapestry. She said that during the long process she felt many times that she was making mistakes, it wasn't working the way she designed it, there were problems with it that any fool could see. She said that feelings of defeat, failure, not being good enough and so forth came up continuously. But she realized that the weaknesses, mistakes and failings of this particular work were part of its character, part of the whole creation process.

And she realized the same things about herself, that her own failures and weaknesses were part of her character, part of who she was, not to be lamented but to be celebrated as part of what made her who she was. She said she felt a constant tugging to be down on herself for her various faults and weaknesses, but this was to be resisted.

She pointed out that when we create something we are intimately aware of its faults and our mistakes in creating it, when everyone else is admiring and being impressed by it. We should embrace our flaws as well as our strengths, the sum of it all is who we are and as an act of creation to be celebrated.

3 comments:

Barbara Anne said...

Hi Anne,

I applaud your bravery in making the most of these classes, even when progress seems slow or difficult. Everyone is a beginner at some time so has been right where you are.

What a rich life lesson in the tapestry creation essay. It would do the world good to have this taught in school - during the early years.

Embrace your imperfections because they make you who you are and they make your creations unique. Couldn't be better!

Hugs!

Anne said...

You never know what you're going to learn, sometimes the lessons are outside the "curriculum"!

20th Century Woman said...

Perfect pieces are made by machines. It's the imperfections that make a piece human and wonderful.